64. Quality time

Okay, so I'm spending some time with my folks right now, helping my dad build stuff and not spending too much time at home. I hope we can find something decent for Sabrina to live at soon, because this situation as it is now is just not tenable. Having your ex living with you is like a timebomb waiting to go off... I'd rather not see it go off.

So... instead I'm building fences, mixing concrete, laying brick... doing something constructive with my time.
Tristan is with me now and he's having a good time. Sadly, I cannot post pictures on here right now, as I didn't bring my camera's cable with me, but it's quality time all the same, take my word for it.

My sister is 7 months pregnant now with her first, a boy. She still hasn't disclosed the name yet, so I guess we'll have to wait and see what the new baby will be called. Tristan will surely get a kick out of it. :)

Okay, time for bed.
Stay good, everyone. Drop comments and what not.

Thanks.

Marcel

63. Pre-traumatic stress disorder

How's that for a spin on PTSD?
I swear, if such a thing existed, I think I may be going through it right now. Or maybe it's the very early stages of the original PTSD, I can't be sure. So much shit happened today, I can't wrap my head around it and I'm sitting here feeling strangely dazed. It's not unlike being stoned in a way.
If one or two of the things that happened today would have happened alone, I'd probably be concerned and obsessing about them, but since it just all kinda tumbled into my lap as one big ball of snakes, I'm sitting here staring at the writhing mass with a mixture of abject horror and curious bewilderment. It's too much to take in, so it feels like my mind has just put up the 'out of order' sign.
I honestly thought that after all the crap I've been through over the past year(s) and the giant effort I put in yesterday, there simply was no way karma would screw me over today...  at least not as royally as it has.
Without going into too many specifics, there's a whole bunch of relationship and interpersonal crap going on right now, including with Tristan, who's totally bewildered about his mom moving back in but not and has been a total nightmare today.
Today, the shit didn't just hit the fan, it buried it.

Let me share a few Facebook posts of mine on here, just for the hell of it:

This day just keeps getting better and better. I think that, apart from getting groceries and dinner, just about NOTHING has gone right today... Sabrina was told she wasn't selected for the one place she could move into and now I'm even getting threatening mail from the boyfriend of my ex's former house mate, trying to bully me into registering her with me again... or else. This has officially been one of the worst days of my life... and I've already had quite a few bad ones... FML.

and:

With the unbelievable amount of crap I've had to deal with in my life, I could write it's a miracle I'm still sane... but then again I know plenty of people who'd argue that point, so I guess I'm just one of those people... seriously, this is not cool anymore... Why always me? Note: please don't write crap like: 'everyone has bad days' or shit along those lines... that won't help. :_o(

and finally:

Just want to say it one more time, in full: FUCKMYLIFEI wish I could find the motherfucker who stole all my good luck and kill him. I'm not asking for a fucking miracle, but please, for the love of God... let it stop raining shit on my head for once... ... and then nobody gave a crap.

And there's more going on I don't even want to post here... the joys of being me. 

62. Like a boss

Well, today was an eventful day, but a productive one, methinks.
I got to ride Tristan to Limmen and then to Castricum on my bike. In Limmen, Sabrina and I had a meeting with the landlord of a place Sabrina may be able to rent. The rent is on the high side, but it includes utilities, so it balances out. One possible complication is that the current tenant is aiming to remain registered at the place, which of course is not even possible, but the landlord would simply tell the truth if someone asked him who lives in the place (which is not the guy leaving now) and at the town hall they said they'd simply investigate the actual situation and follow up on the findings of that investigation.

There's a couple from Castricum also interested in the place... I really hope they don't get picked over Sabrina because this situation cannot become even semi-permanent for so many reasons...

After that, I had a dentist appointment in Castricum. The dentist drilled probably close to a quarter of my teeth from the feel of things (she was at it for close to an hour), but it was pretty easy to bear frankly. I guess even pain can be something one can get used to. Now, honestly, they weren't huge things, where the dentist has to sit there with the drill and wrap your nerve endings around it and yank at them, but still, twas quite unpleasant at some points. I just kinda stared blankly at the logo of the lamp shining in my face and whenever I felt something, I just thought back to the time I had a piece of gauze that grew into my foot after I had surgery done on it and they didn't give me the proper bandages for it. That time, I spent close to an hour in the shower, trying to soak it out... that pain was so bad I nearly passed out a few times. Compared to that, this was, as I told the dentist, child's play.
Owned it like a boss. :P

Whoops! 

Then rode my bike back to Heiloo, listening to Slash on my phone. I'm so stoked ;) to be able to go to his concert in June. Stopped a few times on the way to take a few pictures, like this one:
Heh, apparently, someone didn't watch where they were going... After that, picked up Tristan... and then passed out at home before it was even dinner time.

Ah well, twas a good day.
See you around, whoever you are.

Stay frosty. :)

Addendum: I just browsed around Analytics a bit and found I have repeat visitors from the little town of Bicknell, Utah? I'm really curious who those people may be, since I really can't think of anyone I know in that area. Drop me a line. Always eager to get in touch with ppl on here.